I firstly 1 to write the letter when the producer called because FOOC was about other people's 2 and 3. But the producer 4 so I just started to write. In writing I spoke not just about becoming a 5, but also about my own 6, about loss and the failure of 7, about the pain of different 8I had met along the roads of war, and how alcohol had taken my father from me... There was just one 9 of the letter. Much has happened in the nearly 10 years since the letter was broadcast. I eventually came to live in 11. And I found myself gradually becoming lost in alcohol. For me it went from being the 12, 13 presence to a self-destructive 14. Listening back now I see that at the time, he inhabited my life as a 15, a paradoxical 16, far from me, yet always there... I was lucky to 17 in time. When I read the letter now, I see a young father about to start out on the greatest 18 of his life. He doesn't know that yet, of course. But that child will be the 19 of him, the 20 of him.