The chamber looked such a bright little place to me as the sun shone in between the gay blue chintz (印花棉布)window curtains, showing papered walls and a carpeted floor, so unlike the bare planks and stained plaster(灰泥墙)of Lowood, that my spirits rose at the view. Externals have a great effect on the young: I thought that a fairer era of life was beginning for me, one that was to have its flowers and pleasures, as well as its thorns and toils My faculties, roused by the change of scene, the new field offered to hope, seemed all astir. I cannot precisely define what they expected, but it was something pleasant: not perhaps that day or that month, but at an indefinite future period.
I rose; I dressed myself with care: obliged to be plain—for l had no article of attire that was not made with extreme simplicity…I was still by nature solicitous to be neat It was not my habit to be disregardful of appearance or careless of the impression I made: on the contrary, I ever wished to look as well as I could, and to please as much as my want of beauty would permit. I sometimes regretted that I was not handsomer; I sometimes wished to have rosy cheeks, a straight nose, and small cherry mouth; I desired to be tall, stately, and finely developed in figure; I felt it a misfortune that I was so little, so pale, and had features so irregular and so marked. And why had I these aspirations and these regrets? It would be difficult to say: I could not then distinctly say it to myself; yet I had a reason, and a logical, natural reason too.
无太阳从鲜艳的蓝色印花窗帘缝隙间照进来,照亮了糊着墙纸的四壁和铺着地毯的地反,这跟劳渥德的光秃秃的木板和沾污的灰泥墙完全不同。这个房间看上去是个如此明亮的小地方,我一看见它就精神振奋起来。外表对于青年人是有强烈的影响的。我想,对我来说,生活中一个比较美好的时期正在开始,一个有着荆棘和劳苦,同时也有鲜花的欢乐的时期。由于场景有了变动,由于有希望出现一个新天地,我的官能被唤醒,似乎完全都活跃起来。我不能确切地说明它们在期待什么,不过那总是一种愉快的东西:也许不只是在那一天或者那一个月,而是在一个不明确的未来时期。
我起身了,细心地穿着衣服;不得不穿得朴素——因为我没有一件衣服不是做到极其简单的——可是我却天生酷爱清洁。不修边幅,不管自己给人家留下什么印象,这些都不是我的习惯;相反,我一直希望:尽可能使自己显得好看,在缺少美貌所许可的范围内尽可能使自己讨人喜欢。我有时候惋惜自己没长得再漂亮一点;有时候希望有红喷喷的脸蛋,挺直的鼻子和樱桃般的小嘴;希望自己个子高,庄严,身材丰满;我觉得自己长得那么矮小,那么苍白,五官长得那么不端正、那么特征显著,真是一种不幸。为什么我会有这些渴望、这些惋惜呢?那是很难说的;当时我就没法对自己说清楚;不过,我是有个理由,而且是个合乎逻辑的、自然的理由。